Suicide is painless...

...according to the lyrics of the theme from M.A.S.H.

Well it isn't. Last night my, and many other journeys home, or into London were delayed by a fatality on the rails at Hayes & Harlington. We all assume that this individual chose to take their own life, and whilst it may have been an accident experience tells us it was not.

In these tragic cases I feel sorry for a number of people.

I feel sorry for the friends and family left behind, wondering why they didn't spot anything wrong, and what could they have done.

I feel sorry for the train driver who will be blaming themselves, even though it was something they could not have avoided.

I feel sorry for the passengers on the train in question who will feel some vicarious responsibility even though they have even less control than the driver.

I feel sorry for all the FGW staff and Emergency service teams at the sight of the incident who have to deal with the whole event and it's aftermath.

I feel sorry for the staff at all the stations who then have to deal with anxious, curious and in some cases disgruntled passengers who are now trying to figure out how and when they will get home to loved ones, or if they will make their flight at Heathrow

I feel sorry for my fellow travellers as I shares the anxiety, though I am annoyed when knowing what happened as for once communications were clear, when people get disgruntled, as someone has just lost a life.

I feel sorry for the victim if it was an accident. If it was suicide I'm sorry they spoke to no one and failed to get help as they have wasted a life. I am angry that they have done so without thinking of the impact on all the other people they know, and don't know.

Suicide is far from painless, and if you ever feel that low then please, please reach out for help....it will be there.